I think I’m a kind person. But I can be mean… spiteful, combative, vindictive… in a way it feels good to ‘lean into it’ when that fiery anger mount up.
My dark secret. I keep the nice face showing to most of the world, but mean Matt shows his face at times, unfortunately, most often with the people I feel closest with. Unpredictably different versions of myself sometimes behaving in contradictory ways. Damaging relationships, hindering growth.
Truly knowing and understanding oneself is crucial to improving oneself.
For me, medication and meditation provide some inner balance, harmony with ‘the other guy’.